Monday, August 12, 2013

God, Bible, and Me

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take.” ~ Proverbs 3:5-6 

I may not seem like it, but I used to consider myself one of those not very sociable and unpopular girls in school. I have always felt a low sense of confidence. Although I have the greatest friends in the world, no matter how hard they tried to cheer me up, I would always feel lonely and left out. I have always wanted to be friends with most of the girls and boys in my class and be close to them. I want to laugh, play, exchange secrets, and do other things with them. In short, I want to socialize more, be friendlier, and have a good sense of humor (not that I don’t have one).

My hand drawn version of loneliness 
I feel this way probably because, even if I have all the things I ever wanted than some kids my age, deep inside, there is something very valuable missing in my life. I was not contented with the material things I had. My family and friends mean a lot to me, but there's still a void in my heart-- a missing piece yet to be filled or replaced.

Since my Dad went to a foreign country, I was deeply affected by his absence. “Why did you leave us?” was my lonely, unanswered, lingering question. My Mom says that he left for a reason— a good one at that. And that he always loves us. I had faith in him, but that was slowly disappearing day by day. How could he love us, when he’s been away for a very long time? I ask myself. The small hole in my faith for him kept growing bigger as time went by. I cried every night, my heart full of sorrow, breaking into sobs every now and then. I just can’t get over the fact that I am losing him, my only Dad, the only irreplaceable one in my heart. 

Ironically, it is in this phase of longing and loneliness that I had found true joy and new meaning to life. I have decided to move on. I realized I should write my own story, because I have my destiny to make and my own path to take. I can make great things happen in my life, for I have found my ‘real Dad’ in heaven— the answer to my loneliness. I have discovered that the greatest joy of all was God, Himself.

My family taught me about religion since I was a young child, but I still ask myself, “What is true religion?” I have known all these years that I am a Christian. I have studied in Catholic schools and I have learned a lot about God, but I did not know the depth of meaning behind His existence. I knew about sacraments, commandments, the cycle of the liturgical year and all the teachings I hear from attending Holy Mass during Sundays and holidays of obligation. I thought I already know Him, but I was wrong. Yes, I have prayed all the possible prayers and I have sung praises before, and I thought that I have worshiped Him enough, but I was wrong. I have not truly opened my eyes and welcomed God into my heart. I haven’t welcomed Him fully with my love.

It is then that the realization dawned into me. Were my feelings and prayers to God meaningless, and my worshiping utterly useless? I was an unemotional robot all along. I haven’t felt real love towards Him in the beginning. When I read the Bible, and felt the power of God’s love, remorse and regret poured all over me. I asked myself once again, “Why have I only realized it now? Why when, after all these years, when I always knew about God, I have only realized this now?” I was truly ashamed with the thought that my worshiping and praising then seemed like a mockery to God— a mockery to His love.

I had begged forgiveness when I prayed that night. I begged Him to forgive me, so we can both start over again. I was renewed as a true, God-loving Christian. As the days passed by, little by little, I have opened up to Him my deepest sorrows, dreams and longings. I had grown to love Him more and more each day, looking up to Him as a father figure I may not necessarily see, but I know who will always be there for me. Even if God has no physical form, to me, He is always there, watching and guiding me wherever I go. He is also my shoulder to cry on and my best friend. I always share with Him my thoughts, feelings, and stories. 

When I started this fresh new phase in my life, I have also renewed my relationship with the Bible. The Bible is God’s plan of salvation for all of us. What was written in it were Christian teachings and incredible stories about Jesus. Whenever I think of my Dad and needed guidance, I turn to the Bible. I flip to a random page and read what message it has in store for me at that particular moment. And every time, I feel that the message accurately addresses what I need to realize at the moment. It speaks to me in a sense that I will never be able to explain, because it spoke to my heart. It is an amazing book, no wonder it is known to contain ‘the greatest story ever told’.

Sadly, the Bible is often treated like an everyday possession by most Christians. It remains unopened, gathering dust and cobwebs in most homes, waiting to be read. Sometimes people even pile things up on top of it! It is a sacred book meant to be treasured and respected. Most people don’t realize that one of the best ways that God communicates with us is through this book. All we need to do is to open and find out God’s message and reflect. I believe the Bible can change one’s perspective in life, because it changed mine. Try to discover how it will transform yours, today.

My Dad is still away, and I miss him— nothing has changed that fact. But what greatly changed was how I have come to accept that all things happen for a reason, most of the time far beyond our human understanding. We must trust God’s plan and His eternal goodness and wisdom. Just like a father plans grandly for his child’s future, so does our Father in heaven. Imagine how much more can the one who holds all the riches of the entire universe bless His children? Immensely and immeasurably!

God loves you. All you need to do is to reach out, ask, and listen.


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Friday, August 9, 2013

Turning Korean { Part One }

Anneyonghaseyo (hello)! =) The theme for this certain post is about my favorite Korean dramas! Thanks to my Korean-obsessed super best friend (no offense to my other super best friends!), I have been persuaded to love Korean songs and dramas, as I have been the last few years thanks to my mom (THANKS MOM, YOU’RE THE BEST!!!), but over time I have began to forget my love for it as I concentrated more on anime and manga. But well, congratulations to my friend, because I began to love it again! =) 

Anyways, moving on! Although the other dramas were great, like the Master of Study and Rooftop Prince and other series, my most favorites are You’re Beautiful or He’s Beautiful, Boys over Flowers and Heartstrings! Even though they have already gained immense popularity, they still stayed as my favorites because I really enjoyed watching them and will not mind re-playing their stories all over again. For this blog post, I will present........dan da da da! You’re Beautiful! Squee!!! 

I will rave about You’re Beautiful in this post because it is a cute and very fluffy love story. The series is all about a girl, named Go Mi Nyu and three handsome band members. Go Mi Nyu is a sister-in-training. Her twin brother, Go Mi Nam auditioned for a famous band named A.N.JELL. But something happened to him causing him to leave for America to correct a certain type of plastic surgery. Her brother’s manager pleads for her to pose as Go Mi Nam for the time being while he recovers. She was against it until she she agrees to go later to fulfill her dream to find her mother. After that, she cuts her hair until she looked like Go Mi Nam and meets the band. First is Jeremy (Lee Hongki), Kang Shin Woo (Jung Yong Hwa, my favorite!), and Hwang Tae Kyung (Jang Geung Suk). Tae Kyung does not like Mi Nam and makes her life hard, and Shin Woo and Jeremy are friendly to her. Tae Kyung discovers her secret and threatens to reveal it, and also Shin Woo discovers it but does not reveal it and develops feelings for her. Jeremy later on, also develops feelings for her, but Tae Kyung secretly likes her too. The story follows their lives away from the cameras and Go Mi Nyu's efforts to keep her secret. So there is like, a love square (LOL) and I can’t help but to fangirl scream! 

Anyways, if you are dying to watch it, don’t just stand there! (sit there, I mean) Aren’t you being filled with my un-mortal enemy, suspense! Go and watch it online, or buy it on DVD! Truly a must watch, I tell you! If you don’t watch it, you will be sorry because you will be missing out on a lot! :(


But seriously, you should watch it. It’s like, REALLY GOOD and it will keep you entertained! You will never get tired of it and later, after watching all the episodes, you will find yourself re-playing your fave episodes, just like me! And you will download all the songs found in the series and listen to it all over and over, like me! And then you will keep on squealing when there is a super cute part, just like me! And then, you will announce your crush on one of them in Facebook, just like me! And you will... 

Okay, that is enough of me. I am just like that, okay? So please bear with me. But I can’t blame you if you do the same and say that I am rubbing off on you. =) 

After this really short post, I just want to say I am very sorry if you have been long waiting for my articles. You need to have to a looooooooot of patience because I don’t update very often. As you can see, I slack off a lot (mostly because of anime and school), but I greatly appreciate and thank those who still visit my blog and check out my posts. Really, there is so much to be said, but I just cannot express it into words. 

Okay, enough of the sappiness here (Is ‘okay, enough of’ starting to be my catchphrase?). I will TRY to update more often, as I have said so many times in my previous posts. Bye for now, wishing you good vibes and love, love, love! :)


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